No Day Like Today…: Sometimes I can ALMOST be a super-mom…

…sometimes. I say almost because it's never 100%. I mean let's be honest, that is nearly impossible! Especially when I get up at 5:30 a.m. to go workout, (when I am not having organs being surgically removed from my body) come home, rush to get myself somewhat put together. Shuffle jammy dressed kids out the door just in time for me to get my ass sitting at my desk by 8:30! Work 7-8 hours, go pick up kids from the babysitter, make sure homework is done, get dinner on the table and then bedtime. Let me tell you a little secret...ready, bedtime sucks at our house. Both our kids hate going to sleep by themselves. So it's usually Vin with Avah and myself laying on the floor in Derek's room. On the rare occasion Derek would rather have his daddy, which is fine with me cause I would rather lay in a bed then on the floor! We really need to nip this in the behind. (but honestly, that's the last thing I want to do at night time is fight with kids to go to sleep on their own - so we complain, and hope it wont be an hour before we are out...and continue to do it. Probably because we love them so much!)

So back to me trying to be a super-mom. I wish this was easier to come by. Because all I would like in life right now is a clean home, happy kids, happy husband, and of course happy me. But being a working mom is taking a HUGE toll on that tiny little dream of mine. I love my job. Love the people I work with. HOWEVER! Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it, you know being a career woman and all! I think it's good for my kids to see it, and again I love what I do. BUT I really want to be an awesome mom. So yesterday in my midst of trying to be super-mom. In the four hours I had before I went to work, I managed to dust, vacuum, clean the kitchen, clean the living room, AND I even managed to get a few Halloween decorations out. did I mention that I also took two cute little girls to dance, and went grocery shopping with my very tired little boy too! Yup! That was me yesterday morning! So I was feeling pretty good, right up until I had to take my sweet little kids to daycare.

Here's the thing about daycare. WE HAVE THE BEST DAYCARE! I am not even kidding. I couldn't ask for a better place for my kids to be each day. Melissa is the sweetest, most caring person I know. She loves my kids like her own. She has the cutest family, and really I don't consider them as “the people who watch my kids” they are like family to me. My kids love it too! Derek probably the most. So generally Avah goes to school in the afternoons, but yesterday she didn't have school. When we got to Melissa's she was fine, until she realized she was staying and not going to school. Then came the water works! She was hysterical. So upset, and literally my heart started to break. If the crying alone wasn't enough. Through her sopped wet face, and huge breaths I hear “all I want to do is stay home with you, make pumpkin bread, and decorate for halloween.” YUP! Did you hear it too? My heart crumbled into a million pieces, and it took all I had not to fall to the ground and join her in her sob story! It was the absolute worst! Because I was now late for work, I had to gather up whatever was left of me and shut the door behind me to the sounds of her balling. So of course the next fifteen minutes I spent in the car was me crying just as hard as Avah. So much for thinking I had pulled off the super-mom card! UGH!

It's tough, I hope someday that I get to be there for my kids 100%. I am thankful I have a job, I am thankful I have a husband who works every single day to try to be better at his career, so he can make more money just so I can wear my cape and be a super-mom daily! Until then, you can bet that on Sunday my sweet little girl of mine will be in the kitchen making pumpkin bread and whatever else her little heart desires!